Exausted

So you all heard about the earthquake right? scariest thing possibly in my life.I was fast asleep on saturday morning and awoke to Ash waking me up telling me to get under the doorframe.i could tell by the tone of his voice that this was no joke just as i registered what was happening.what seemed like the next few minutes were spent standing in the doorway going "oooh oooh oh".as soon as it stopped shaking long enough we bolted outside, since we live in a 4 story townhouse, and our bedroom is on the 3rd floor.we then stayed outside in the cold until it was safe to go in.

Thankfully nothing in our house was damaged and noone was harmed but im still very freaked out by the whole thing.Every aftershock that can be felt sets me into a panic again.

So right now all i want is a unbroken nights sleep.I know thats not much to complain about, but right now thats all im capable of thinking.

I think the whole city needs to have a siesta.I like that idea.

Thoughtful

Well what a lot i have to think about.
As it is now close to the end of winter, i can feel myself becoming thoughtful all over again.
Ive found that with the change of each season, i end up reassessing my life and where it is headed.

Given the fact that i still haven't got a job yet, its very hard to know where i want to be by the end of the year.A job is a huge part of a persons life and has a lot of impact on their decisions.So im feeling like im in limbo, since i cant take that into account just yet.

I did do some interesting reading on the chinese zodiac.
This year is the year of the tiger.I also happen to have been born in the year of the tiger.But its not as simple as that.Within that category are five elements.Metal,Water,Fire,Earth and Air.So im a fire tiger.Cant remember how i found that out, but anyway this year is the year of the metal tiger. Thats meant to be a good thing for me because metal and fire don't clash like metal and wood etc.


So considering its my lucky year, wheres all the Luck at??


Another thing i find amusing is that as well as being born in the year of the tiger, my star sign is Leo.So im a lion and a tiger.i do find this highly amusing since so much about me fits the characteristics of these two felines.


Just don't get me angry.Meeooow!!

Big Girl Now

Well my oh my


I'm now one year away from 25.That's just madness.
Just wish i had a job.Had an interview at farmers on Monday, but didn't get the job.Same reason as always, "you did really well in the interview but we chose someone with more experience".
How on earth do you get experience if no one will give you the chance?
So im having a hard time with the fact that im doing everything i can to get a job, but its doesn't seem to be enough.
I just want a job.Shame i didn't have candles to blow out on my cake, because that would be my birthday wish.Oops im not meant to tell....

Lazy Sunday

So its a Sunday, and for some strange reason i was up and about at 9am.This is so not like me.Come the weekend, i highly value my sleep in time.But this weekend Ive been up early both days this weekend.Whats wrong with me? During the week i usually wake up around 11am.until this week anyway.I guess its been a good thing though really, its meant Ive been able to get a lot done.

Get rather annoyed with trying to put duvet covers on.Changed the sheets etc today,but it came time to put the duvet cover on, and it was like trying to wrestle with a bear, or a giant piece of bread.But its ok.I conquered it by climbing inside the belly of the beast to get all the wrinkles out.Yay me :)

Its very lucky that i was house trained from an early age, because Ash is not quite experienced in doing housework.I do still appreciate when he does help though.

So now its time to try compile a grocery list.My problem is, i always forget something, and conveniently remember what it was once Ive finished putting the grocery's away. Hopefully it wont be anything too important this time.

Rainy rainy rain

Well today's weather forecast...Crappy.
Funny how much the weather can affect your mood, but today im not a happy camper.I think this is largely due to the fact that im sick and don't know whats wrong with me or why it wont go away.
But anyway,back to the weather.Isn't it funny how when its winter we complain about the cold, but in summer its too hot? So Ive decided Spring is my favourite season.Its usually the medium between the two, minus all the leaves blowing into my garage and making a mess everywhere.

I do love snow though, but no luck getting any so far.And rain isn't fun, you cant make rain-men or rain angels.
I had another of those deep sayings pop into my head as i was thinking about seasons and time etc.

Life is a highway,and there's a rear-view mirror for a reason

Sometimes things in our past really suck.Their like big bumps in the road that can throw us off course.But those are the things that make us unique.
A unique quality i have that Ive discovered over time is my inability for perfection.
I'm not saying i think im perfect by any means, just that things i try to do always fall short of working out right. For example, whenever i dye my hair, there's always one patch that retains my previous colour.Or when i made apple and rhubarb muffins, and they were soggy in the middle because of the mixture being too wet. Even the little typos i make by leaving out a letter as i write this.

But I like that about myself.It means im not perfect or fake or whatever direction you want to go.
And as im approaching my 24th birthday, i have found myself looking back at my life so far.I think its been great all up.

One thing that does concern me, is how as the years race by,it becomes a lot harder to remember what it felt like to be a kid.I guess this is what it means to get old.I still have childhood memories, but they're not as vivid as they were, say 4 years ago.But maybe that's where having kids comes into the life equation.They help you remember, and create memories from a different perspective.So that's what has me looking forward not back.I don't know that im ready for kids right now, but it is a part of my hopes for the future.

Ok now my tummy is shouting at me that its hungry, so time for some good old fish and chips.Its quite a treat for me, since i cook every night.

mmmmmm Chips

Old but New

So here i am again.I have to confess that i forgot all about the fact that i have a blog until i was scrutinizing my facebook page today. "i have a blog? oh yeah..."
So im willing to give this a revival.
So to update the situation, i have a lot of time on my hands nowadays due to the fact that i am unemployed.Its been longer than i would like to admit, so i wont tell you how long its been :P
I felt the need to have a career change due to the dissatisfaction i was experiencing, but made an unfortunate mistake in my choice of new job.

(Let me just say that trying to sign people up for charity is not easy, especially when your livelihood depends soley on people following through with their "how terrible"s and "that's sad"s for less than the price of a cup of coffee, or loaf of bread a week)

Social networking sites can only occupy the mind for so long.Hence my reason to revive.I jut hope this isn't going to go the way of neon clothing from the 80's.It wasn't cool then and it isn't now.


So bare with me as i get the hang of this, and perhaps i can save you from dying of boredom from said social networking sites or general lack of motivation.


Miss Jai

Cellphones

So has anyone ever wondered what life would be like without cellphones?

I must confess, i am the guilty owner of two cellphones, one for each network.But for the past three months, i have had no credit on one of them.and then today i finally, topped it up.and the bombardment of text messages was astounding.but i have been grinning from ear to ear, because im finally in contact with the outside world.like i once said to my mother, my phone is my umbillical cord to the world.